Five Years

"What would you say to the person you were five years ago?
What will you say to the person you’ll be in five years?"

To the person I was five years ago....."You don't need a man in your life to make you "whole" ~ My life and how I live it is what makes me whole....

Seeking partnership with a man, and approaching the quest something like a "business agenda" proved fruitful in a variety of ways.

I did fall in love...it was unrequited....it did, however, make me aware of just how much love I have in my heart and how very much I have to share....

and to those and with those who do not "get" me and and did not wish to continue a love affair with me...and my heart...I wish them well on their journey, for in that quest I found, at last, that I am enough.

It appears that I have many lessons to learn about letting go of attachment to those things that I love so dearly...yet as I learn this lesson I am more and more fulfilled by the simplest of exchanges....

I do still need and want resolution in certain circumstances...and if it is not
"given" with ease it is indeed troublesome to my heart....

I have learned that people impose GREAT pain on one another and I used to think they did not know the difference..... I think sometimes that they do know the difference...yet remain indifferent.

It is why and ongoingly that I fall more and more in love with plants and animals in the natural world...

One always knows where one stands.

As to what I would say to my future self....

This may indeed be one of the most selfish sounding things
ever uttered from my finger tips....

I've spent a lifetime helping others grow in their creative careers....
For this time....and in future years....I am going to be selfish for a while
and focus on that which pleases me "first"

Its a strange realization .... but I have SO much more
for others when I give myself
the benefit of the fruits of my labor first....

and I only realize this now...

In five years I will be 59 years old....and having just witnessed Kirstie Ally on Dancing With the Stars.....60 can be a time of renewal...and a continued committment to living life with GREAT gusto....

Sian Lindemann
Ralph Waldo Emerson Prompts
#Trust30