Anger Management

NOT the movie......

Its a curious thing when one feels and thus expends ANGER.

I notice that when I get angry people tend to scatter.

I have always been a rather expressive individual and after many years of work in the "personal development world" I now am much more aware of that what kicks off my anger, and it hardly ever has to do with the fact that I am really angry.

It has everything to do with I am feeling hurt...inside.

As artists we have tender hearts...which always allows us to feel and to express fully into each of our individual art forms. Being open and receptive is essential in order to capture and to thus render the original works.

Being open also makes for potential emotional upheavals based on the fact that we ARE vulnerable, we are thus tender to receive the craft, we are more able to express those emotions.....is it good ?

When I feel angry as I have been feeling today, my first inclination which is SO dumb is to find someone to blame it on ( VERY MATURE of me to feel this way, I know )

Once this passes, and thankfully it always does, I really have to look at why I am feeling this way...what has caused me to feel angry ?

It always, always comes back to a moment of feeling vulnerable, exposed, perhaps embarrassed, or otherwise "tender" and the anger is a mere expression of self defense. In other words, Engarde ! Take THAT ! Beware !

And what is the source of this.....who KNOWS ???
Fragility is like nature.....a bloom emerges...and with plentiful sunlight, mist, and delicacy it blooms.....

If trampled, it may survive, but may have some "recovery" time before it can once again stand tall.

Jeff Brown speaks often lately about the innate human dumbness about the need to shame or make people feel ashamed of those moments when they have become most exposed. We do it to cover our own feelings that may or may not relate at all to the action, but may well have LOADS to do with the fact that when another reveals oneself so fully it is often cause for our own inner disturbance. LIGHT and LIFE can be blindingly beautiful, poignant, impactful, palpable.

Fear not, however.....Walking into the discomfort, and not expressing the anger, can also be cause for the most extraordinary new depth in relating.

I am NOT always successful in not expressing the anger...sometimes it is automatic...self defense is QUICK

But I am certain I AM more aware and AM certainly more willing to take MORE time to get back to center....get back to the real issue...get back to the truth....of what caused it in the first place.

If the response is "Hey you hurt my feelings" versus ~ "HEY I AM SO DAMN ANGRY AT YOU"...which do you think might well be responded to more effectively.

Check it out...or better yet ~ CHECK "IN"
What caused your most recent anger ?

Today it was two things....

1) Not being appreciated
2) Having been made to look foolish in a public manner.

Both were uncomfortable
Both are resolvable.

Its takes ME to do so first to recognize the source of my ANGER.
And yet again, All that occurred is my feelings were "hurt"

I'm okay now.....Are you ?
And is the damage irreparable ?

Usually NOT.....It does however take one to lay down the sword
And the other to recognize that they did impart pain upon another.
Can we overcome? ...Of course.

It takes courage.
It takes LOVE
It takes compassion
And it takes willingness to initiate peace at all cost.

I am willing.
Are you ?

I Have Forgotten How Old I Am

This is GREAT !

Had I known that the greatest way to anti - age was to go to Pure Fitness Greenway and work out once and sometimes twice a day... have it cost me only $20.00 a month. Hire a GREAT trainer.....where of course I will not mention ( out of politeness ) how very CUTE all the trainers are (this is where I have lost certainty as to my age )...

and devote only two months of my life to feeling better than I have felt since I was 20 years old.....MY GOD ... why did I not do this before now ?

So is is my DUTY to inform the world that you're if you're looking for the "magic bean" or "magic potion" to regain your YOUTH....look no further...

Pure Fitness Greenway, 32nd and Greenway, Phoenix, Arizona
ROCKS !!!!

And OH by the way, Lucretia Torva, Torva Fine Art
will be there all day Monday August 30, 2010 from 5 AM
to 7 PM ~

And if you're looking for me....that IS where you will find me too
Now 25 lbs lighter ~


I LOVE MY JOB !!!

Sian Lindemann
Sian Design Presents.... Torva Fine Art and Kangen Water

See you there on Monday !

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Witness

"WITNESS"

Author ~ Sian Lindemann ~ 2009



Living...



the life of an artist
since the age of 4,
I have come to recognize
that there is one but one "constant"
in the act of creation.



I long for "witness."



I remember
that as a small child
I was given the opportunity to try many things,
and
I was given the freedom
to explore those notions.



I was not well attended as a child.



At the time, it may have been perceived as neglect
on the part of my parents... yet,
I did not know any differently,



and so for me,
it was freedom.



I could choose what I wished to "do" today...
an
it was without judgement,
or consideration of
consequence.



I loved to explore...
I loved to make new friends,
I loved to venture
into imagination.



I loved the "act" of discovery.



I loved things that moved...
Things that needed construction
things that "worked"and had moving parts.



And I loved,
particularly to share that discovery
with someone.



It could be with a friend.
It could be with my sister,with my mom,
with guests to our home
or with anyone who would listen.


I was not particular
as to who must witness,
simply that the act of discovery
had witness.



I don't know "why"
it was essential...yet its witness
was so important,



Perhaps the JOY
I experienced
in the discovery


was worthy to share.



Or perhaps it was "witness"
that defined
and made clear



I exist.



@ Sian Lindemann

Sian Design ~ 2009







The Artist's Wife is Wise

Tina Girandola is Robert Girandola's wife. The post on her status today captured my attention so much that I decided to make today's blog post on topic to its statement.

"What other people think of you is none of your business."

I recognize that I spend quite a bit of time wondering how I am being received by my friends, clients, colleagues, and acquaintences. I should know by now that I've never ever been able to insert myself into a particular crowd......I've always been the odd ball on the perimeter as if embodied purely for "witness."

In light of yet another fantastic quote that appeared in my thread on FaceBook...."Stop regretting that God has made you exactly the way you want to be..." (Anne Newell)

is an even greater AHA that Who I am, just as I am, is the very best of myself...as is....We try to change to fit into, to adapt to, to cooperate with, to be part of "the" crowd. As an artist your best use is to live firmly and devotedly in the extreme uniqueness that you are.

Well that just about says it all ~ Why on earth worry about what people think ~ I came to earth in this form to be exactly what was divinely planned and it is perfect "as is." And what's even better that if I just allow myself to live as I am, BE Myself, Have as much fun as possible, smile daily, laugh heartily, and trust my crazy "awesome" ideas that life has begun again at 54 years of age .... and its the BEST ever...

THIS is a good thing....and you ?

Sian Lindemann
August 25, 2010

I LOVE My Life

When was the last time you could say this statement outloud... and mean it ?

Have you ever said this statement outloud and meant it ?



I know that I have had "moments" throughout my life that I loved, but I cannot recall EVER

feeling the way I am feeling today.



I LOVE my life ~



and its a new experience for me when I express this...as

it resonates all the way up from my toes to my heart where it explodes into

a smile.



What freedom there is that kind of love.



It is an experience that has released me from an "idea" or many ideas of what I

thought love was. Its kind of fun...to look out upon the world and not see anything

that doesn't remind me, fill me, warm me, and envelope me in love.



I'd say this is the very best of success.

Its The Water

I am SO lucky ...... Subhash Verma has been meditating and praying for my health for months.....A Fantastic team at Pure Fitness Greenway getting my body to "move" after two years in my Face Book office.














The TRAINERS Pure Fitness Greenway


Monks in Tibet praying daily for my ......happiness...Navdeep Singh from Ireland teaching me a new way to meditate that actually made my heart sing and my creativity blossom again...Barbara G Wainwright.....a true angel "on earth" who has been the most unconditionally supportive friend I believe I may have ever known. .......gotta say Life is SWEET ~ and ITS the water ;)Its awesome to feel SO good again..... Thank you so much !!!

Its Day Five on my self imposed assignment ~ 30 days, 30 blog posts as suggested by Seth Godin. In light that I might find new and better ways to serve and to inspire my clients and customers.....and to ultimately provide better service to their end needs.

On Health, Lifestyle and Career

I think I had taken for granted that health was a given. I've always been healthy....and I've always been active...until the last two or so years. I had moved to Colorado, and was recovering the most profound of broken hearts.

It affected me in ways I could not have known...that ultimately was cause for a new found state of suffering in my health......it culminated of course in weight gain that I'd not really been aware had occurred....a significant and complete change in my professional life and business, and the recovery from emotional as well as financial challenges...

All paths were pointing to extreme ill heath, based on a back log of stress that had seemed insurmountable.

It was not until a few months ago that I realized the dire nature of my immobility and took the initiative to make some changes.

I was shocked to discover how much my health had suffered...and was only fully aware when I fell ill to some kind of

lung and sinus infection that knocked me flat on my back for WEEKS.......



Wake up Call

I moved to Arizona. I removed myself from a work and living situation that was TOXIC. I let go of everything that was "in the moment" seeming to have importance....for without my health I was truly useless to anyone.....mostly to myself.

I was angry....I was bitter and I was really really sad.

The move to Arizona was exceptional and changed my outlook completely.

A trip to Sedona...and subsequent introductions and interactions with those listed at the top of this post...made me realize that I am REALLY cared for in this life.

Most of these people were complete strangers to me other than my interactions here
on Face Book ( where I did manage to maintain a rather cheery exterior in the format in which I was now doing online promotion for all of my clients, most of whom are artists )

There was so much support for me to heal....to grow.....and to shift out of that abhorrent "state" that I have been, truly, was humbled to my toes.

I continue to feel better, grow stronger, and am feeling more myself than I have in years and in alignment with the topic...how have these discoveries helped me to alter my business so that I may too share the value of good health with others.


Its the Water....

Along with the amazing people and support I speak of here....there has been one other thing that I have changed.

With so many moves and so many different "waters" to which I have subject
I have grown extremely particular in requiring clean, bottled water.....which becomes a rather expensive proposition on a daily basis....

Several months ago I was introduced to Kangen Water.

I knew that it was PH balanced water.I knew that it was "ionized" water...but I had no idea it would be a miracle cure in and of itself.

I have suffered from summer hayfever allergies ALL of my life.

There is not a time that I can remember where I could not leave the house without
some kind of allergy medication in my pocket...and a variety of "tabs" so as to be protected from a major allergy attack....

I had to think about the weather...whether I would touch the cats, have enough meds while visiting the barn and horses...or for pretty much any activity in which I would engage.

I ALWAYS had allergies.

I started drinking this new Water only two or three months ago....
and for the first time EVER in my whole life I have had no alleries what so ever.


Fluke ?

It is such a profound change that I actually took a "review" of all of the things I have changed, and although I am exercising again and loving that ~ the fact that I am consuming massive amounts of this PH balanced water.....is the only really big shift that I am aware of that is not somewhat like

what was already in place up to but not including the last three years.



I've known that changing the PH in the body was cause for wellness.
I'd no idea it was as simple as drinking a water that has a naturally balanced PH.


For the discomfort from all that I listed above, that was pretty challenging.
But to see such a significant change in just changing the kind of water I drink,
well with that alone,....I had to go and buy a machine, and assure that I could drink that kind of water every day until forever from now.

Cheers......and a continued HUGE thank you to all of the great people I have listed here

and to Ms. Lucretia Torva who turned me on to THE water....



Kangen Water.

It IS the water
and for that I am SO very grateful

Cheers

Sian Lindemann
August 23, 2010

Are You Listening ?

"Some people hear their own inner voices with
great clearness. And they live by what they hear. Such people
become crazy... or they become legend." -Jim Harrison

I am one of those people who has an extremely loud inner voice.
It is clear, It is absolute, and it has not failed me.

I was asked today .... "How do you hear that inner guidance?"

For me it is not subtle, for me it is often as plain as....
Sian......Call So and So...Sian Turn Right Here.....Sian Paint Red....

I am understanding that others do not hear so clearly.
May I make a suggestion...?

It kind of goes with my earlier post about visibility.
You may not be able to hear your inner voice clearly for a number of
reasons. The main one being that if you DO.....then you have to listen,
and if you listen, then you have to "act" upon that guidance.

Oh my ..... Response.....Ability ~
The path of being an intuitive means that you must Walk The Talk
and to do what it is you are guided to do.

For me right now, as I write this I hear my guides giggling away
and informing me that NEW MEXICO was prescribed...

"When are you going Sian" ?
So with that Gotta Go.

It doesn't always make sense but after years and years of
"acts of faith" on my part, and following that guidance, that
I am indeed assured that I am not being lead away from that
which is serving my highest good, and more importantly the
use of my strengths....

Are you listening ?
If you are not....Ask me
If you are...Do what you're told
You'll not regret living a sincere and more deeply
fulfilling life....

It might bring change.
But think about this change as an adventure.
Life is just that.....Meant to be lived with JOY, Passion, and
a sense of adventure ....

Its just SO much more fun !

Sian Lindemann
August 22, 2010

I'm Taking Seth Godin's Advice

Seth's Advice 30 days - 30 Blog Posts

I'm taking the advice I received today from Seth Godin's blog ~ http://sethgodin.typepad.com/seths_blog/

I AM going to write a post a day on all the ways I can improve the services and products that my company provides to the market and I will ask you, my friends, to keep it on target ~ Let me know if what you read you find valuable and applicable to your own company and to your career as an artist.

DAY ONE

Yesterday I wrote a post titled "Visibility" and it received so much attention that I was astounded... and I was inspired. Something so simple was cause for such a significant discussion, that was, in fact, highly illuminating for me.

I have assumed that everyone knows that when you commit to your career, and I mean really COMMIT, that you will automatically garner a significant amount of new attention.

I was astounded to discover that many did not bank on this as a given...something that would occur automatically, and without your ability to control. People will love you. People will criticize you. And NOW in Social Media you'll find all kinds of reactions to your visibilty....and in the last few days I've discovered some fabulously interesting things.

I think EVERYONE wants to be famous ~ You know, the Warhol 15 minutes of Fame assurance.

I am deeply and absolutely wrong ~ HOW can this be ?

And its caused me to wonder why.
I have known since college that my decision to have become a Music Performance Major on Clarinet and the woodwind instruments, very soon lost its appeal ~ and I quit school after only one year in that program.

I realized that is was just not star powered enough for me. Playing clarinet in some Symphony Orchestra in somewhere obscure place in the "world" and potentially becoming the next great clarinet teacher was entirely WAY TOO ho hum right out of the gate.

Isn't it fascinating however, to discover that some 30 years later that ALL I WOULD want to do would be to teach, and even more surprising to find it the more rewarding time of my adult career in the Fine Arts....

Wake up Call !

And I've become known in the industry for being that teacher, mentor, catalyst and am now being very well recieved in the role. Funny however, that it didn't really catch fire until I started WRITING.....the ONE art form that has eluded me, caused me more frustration and angst than any other art forms in which I have immersed....

and so be it...I am now committing to writing one blog post a day ... just for the practice and the "brevity" of conveyance of ideas.

Lesson Learned...

1) Fame...Its NOT for everyone
2) Writing... PICK UP THE PEN Sian ! It appears the world likes your writing....so less talking, more writing ~

Seth you are correct ~ Two new products are now ready to "ship" ~

1)Classes are forming where I may teach what I know to other artists
2)Could these 30 blog posts become the book ????

So far so good ~ New products and services that my customers actually want !
WOW !

Thanks for listening ~
Let me know how I'm doing as we progress through the month.

Visibility

Did you think that once you adopted a career as an artist and have included with it a profound and devoted spiritual path that God, Spirit or your chosen nomenclature, that you would then now be allowed to remain "invisible?"

As a very outgoing, effusive and gregarious character all of which I have "in spades," it never occurs to me while I'm working with my clients that "fame" or visibility is something they are unaware they are going to have to deal with. For in the very promotion of one's career, visibility comes with the territory, and for some celebrity and fame.

I've wrestled with this one....at times, and in this moment I am making a significant discovery.

I chose not to sit on a mountain top in the Himalaya and pray for peace.....although that is certainly an option that I COULD choose and would be as effective as that which I am engaged in now. ( Loved the article that I posted a few weeks ago.....that reminded me that there are monks in Tibet who are praying for my success and happiness RIGHT now as I write this note for my colleagues and friends here on Face Book. I am amazingly inspired by that notion...that there is someone who does not know me personally, but who cares for me more deeply than perhaps I may sometimes even care for myself ) Awesome consideration

So here's the news... FAME comes with the territory. And responsibility for that FAME also comes with the territory.

Now you COULD be a rockstar and spend alot of time participating in wildly destructive behaviour and trash your hotel...or you could be BONO and Cure Aids from the face of the earth....I choose Bono.

And I also choose that with every step I take that whom ever is "in my path" get a good dose of sunlight, consideration, recognition, appreciation, kudos, complements and THANKS for a job well done......

and don't you know that THAT kind of effusiveness also gets me in trouble....Where did humans ever lose our ability to "receive" recognition for a job well done, recognition that I appreciate the fact that you are successful by continuing to breathe, and that your SO successful to have crossed my path......sorry...cause if you're in MY world......the rest of the world will know that you exist ~



That is my job, by the way....I am a promoter.

(Using my strengths to their best USE )

I am a creative business development specialist

I am CREATIVE

and I am certainly ALIVE !!!



There is not denying this and in the words of my sister whom I adore...she says....often

"Susie......there is just NO ONE LIKE YOU ON EARTH
They broke the mold after they made you......"

So I accept that I am very very unusual. I live in an unsual manner. I roam the earth in a nomadic way, and I freakin' LOVE MY LIFE.

Has it been easy ? Are you serious ....and I laugh loudly 'outloud'
Has it been adventurous ? ~ Absolutely
Has it been a challenge to be an "edge runner" ~ OMG of course.....always a initiator of new ideas I now wish I had taken a picture of all the times I've pitched a new idea to a company, to a client, to a business, to the world, and received that universally recognized "DEER in the Headlights" stare.

Heads nodding.....recipient speechless.....well here's the trick ~ I know I am an innovator.....I know I spread ideas and actions in ways that make people's head spin.....but here's what I also know ....is that eventually the recipient will calm down, take the time to analyze was presented and will with out a doubt come back to me in full understanding and or acceptance, and often times will relate the same idea to me almost as if they had thought it up......


That is AWESOME......yet it is also a little discombobulating in the immediate moment that I have to "wait" for the understanding to land....but it always does.



AND in the role of now "VISIBLE".....one also has to deal with the fact that SOME will LOVE us....and SOME will do everything in their power to "shut off the light" ~ so to speak.....and will rant, rave, and carry on in ways that I find astounding which emulate some of the very very best examples of pure self - sabotage ever witnessed by mankind.....and I accept that those people I cannot help...oh well.



Do I spend a lot of time worrying about this ? NOPE
I do analyze it, to assure that I have not intentionally hurt some one.....as I can get rather "on a roll" but I don't angst over the fact that there simply some people who will NOT ever want to be in my world, be a part of my world, play in my world, or do business with me....

but it surely will not stop me, nor will it have me slip back under a rock in the darkness, because my effusive nature is "too much" for one particular individual.

In light of the fact that I have invested a lifetime into personal development, classes, courses, experiences and knowledge.....why on earth would I waste such a treasure by a slight discomfort with the fact that FAME finds me ..... I don't have to try,

In some circles that is called charisma......like Hollywood whereby charisma alone is monetizable....

The energy I have is BIG....the enthusiasm I hold for LIFE is palpable.....and thanks to all the personal development courses I have a heart the size of the UNIVERSE itself ~ I am so lucky, to have had this chance to live NOW, to KNOW you, and to SMILE alot today.

Why on earth would I want to HIDE that ?
Please forgive me if this is a little "too effusive" for you this morning .....
the good news its all natural ..... and with that think I'll go get some coffee now.....

Make it a GREAT day. It is of course "the first day of the rest of your life"

Make it Count !

Jim Zuckerman

SNEAK PEEK

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Walk One Mile For Clean Energy

"Be the change in the world that you wish to see"

Take The First Step ~



This project is designed to inspire one billion people to take action for the conservation and preservation of our Earth, its natural resources and its people.

Recent events in the Gulf of Mexico, specifically the BP Oil Spill, was cause for alarm regarding our ongoing dependence and need for oil based products. With over 30 years in the promotion of art whose voice, imagery and intent was to raise awareness in order to protect environmental habitat and its wildlife, it is realized that with the occurrence of this event, Founder Sian Lindeman, has not had one iota of influence or impact to that which she has been devoted for 30 years of her life...

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